HAHA! Today I had a field trip... the ESPers went to the Philadelphia Mueseum of Art... it was for a Model UN conference (Model UN is where we kids pretend to be diplomats, and represent different countries. I'm Papua New Guinea.) There were lots of naked people and giant rugs hanging on the walls... (And yes I know there called tapestries.)  Anyways, theres this kid in my ESP class named John. He is pretty serious 90% of the time and is actually alot smarter than me. The speaker was asking questions to each school individually, and John was chosen to answer a question for Chichester Middle School. I forget the question, but the answer was "sustainable tourism". He got really excited so when he got the microphone he pronounced this loudly and clearly- "Sustainable terrorism!"... The entire auditorium laughed... It was really funny! But I kind of (Just barely.) felt bad for John. His face turned beet red. He still got the prize all the kids got for answering questions. A hackey sack. I later asked him " Was humiliating yourself in front of 300 kids worth it?" He said "It sure was!"

8D Today turned out much better than I thought. My bedroom is clean, my chores already done, no homework, and I re-friended an old bff. People liked my red jeans... oh! And Science Olympiad is canceled. I didn't even have to deal with the stupid ninth grader called Norman! (His name is funny. lolz.) And when I say stupid... I mean STUPID. Dumber than me, and I'm two grades behind him. Maybe I'm just too smart though. D: Anywayz... Loaded is on Fuse! Blink-182 today. Their vids are always funny. That's about it... yep. Bye!

Four days into the new year and I've done absolutely nothing. My dad is sick, my stepmom is miserable. I don't even know how I manage to live on through this... bleh. School tomorrow. At least school gives me something to do... and this first week should be a pretty lazy week. right after such a long break, we shouldn't get much work... I'm getting nervous about the CYLC Inaugural conference. It's so close... I'm really curious about what the Inaugural ball is going to be like... I've already been forced to wear a dress that night, so it can't get much worse! It would be worse if you had to find a date from the group... What will the people be like? Will they be nice, or snobby? Will I get stuck in the hotel room next to the one with the loud girls? Will my roommates snore or kick when they sleep? God, hate this anxiety. Just kill me and get it over with.

Wow... already the new year.  So much has happened, so much will happen. My parents say this year will be a big one for my life, and well... I believe them. It will be nice to move on, to get older and more respected. But it also mean I'll have more responsibilities. Those'll be a big pain in the tailbone... I wonder what big fashion changes will hapen in the next year... will those ginourmous glasses still be in? I hope not. They look good but I can't stand to wear them. What about music? 3oh!3 should be getting big. hopefully Chase Coy, too. I wonder if this year will find me in a relationship of some sort? It doesn't sound that bad, but it would be such an inconvienience if it didn't last. So not worth the trouble. I'm hoping to see Jupiter and Mercury tonight... just after the sun sets! Tonight I'm being forced to sleep over my aunt's while my parents go out and party. It would be funny if they came back with another story of my uncle "Crazy Dan"  (We can't say Dan without Crazy before it... it's just part of his name now.)  throwing up in my grandma's backyard.... I think that's pretty much it. Can't wait to get everything over with.
                                        Buh-bye! ~Ashley~

Hello! If anyone reads this... it's my first entry. So close to the new year... 2008 was terrible. Such drama. I hope next year is better. Last year was so terrible... I don't want to think about it. So all my entries will be about the new and now. Currently I'm really only 12 years old. I can't wait to get just another year or two passed by. I know I'll change very quickly but right now I like music, I want to learn an instrument or two, I love art but I hardly have any time to draw, fashion is something I'd like to become involved in, school is a big thing in my life, and I kind of lost all my really close friends. I'mm hoping to move from here in stinky little Linwood Pennsylvania to somewhere in New Jersey or North Carolina like my mom said we would. Although I live with my dad, my mom hopes to get custody of me sometime before this July. I really hope she does. It might mean living not as an only child, but with 2 little sisters, but it's worth it. As I'm trying to think optimisticly at my cold desk, a sort of numbness chews away at my core. It's really confusing. But I'll get through this. It's just another night. I'm very used to lying to make my life more exciting... but i'm trying to kick the habit. If I do move, I'm going to miss the boy I've grown up with. Billy L. He's my best friend, my brother, my patient and therapist. We were inseperable, but my constant stream of lies lost his complete faith in me. I can't regain either, as moving will be painful enough. Let's try to think happy thoughts, shall we? I'm going to the Inauguration of President Elect Obama! Can't wait for it! I'll leave my parents for a CYLC conference from January 17-21. I have to wear a dress to the Inaugural ball. That's the only scary part though. Let's see... new year resolutions : stop biting nails, be a bit more optimistic, find a new life with my mom, start thinking about my future, and get more involved with extracurricular things like art and fashion. It was far easier to tpe then it will be to do. I have to go now. It's barely 9PM yet I'm really tired and need a hot shower. I hope to write something tomorrow! A tout a l'heure! See you later!